More Fire – Less Smoke

I miss you sometimes.  It lasts for several minutes – then I fight off your ghosts, and put to sleep your echoes.  It gets easier, as I am reminded of your miscarriage of my heart. You abused a gift, while using smoke and mirrors for a clean retreat.  I give you credit for the game you played, but I hope you know I won.  I slipped out with minimal bruising, though I must admit my head was not held high. I felt foolish for a long time. I am mostly now – just filled with apathy.  Your repetitive cries laminate my champion’s certificate.  I will make a copy for you.

Your reflection is beaten.  Look again and see it this time.

Sometimes I want to stab you with relentless truths, but I pull back my tongue and lay to rest my hand.  It is the right thing to do.  I will give you this failure. I can’t bring to light what is already shining for all to see.

I hope your words will soon become your own.  And the echoes I hear won’t just be ripped from another’s pages.  Maybe because you know that your own tongue – melts to the touch and ripples with the wind.  Failing in its intended purpose… and so painfully repetitive.

My next step crackles like a fire and shapes a new legacy.  This was not just another broken heart. Destruction for a better reconstruction.  I see much clearer – now that there is so much more fire… and far less, bullshit smoke.

 

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24 Responses to More Fire – Less Smoke

  1. Keats says:

    I like this. It reminds me of how I felt after my divorce. Keen and new with my recent breaking, I reconstructed myself in my own image… Instead of the image of the woman my husband had wanted me to be… This piece is simple and well put.

  2. booguloo says:

    Resigning to win. A good palette cleaner.

  3. Nassar says:

    I like it much much. “I give you credit for the game you played, but I hope you know I won” Jessica Kristie said. Your head is high.You are wonderful.

    Nassar

    • Thank you! Sometimes you have to dig deep for inspiration, even if it comes from something years ago. Often times reflection makes for a honest write, even if they are fleeting emotions. I appreciate you stopping by. 🙂

  4. brian says:

    burn it down, rebuild it better…the bs smoke is a big waste of time…

  5. I like this. I wish I had a champion’s certificate of my own.

    • Aw, glad you like it. Hey, we don’t always walk away with one. More times than not – we don’t. Just as long as we can always take something from each experience. Thank you so much for reading. ♥

  6. Claudia says:

    ouch – lots of pain in this and sometimes the smoke is so heavy that we get lost and cough with our eyes all red – good to do away with all the “damp wood” which is only causing smoke and keeps the fire from burning…

  7. betweenhearts75 says:

    Very very well written….the old saying comes to mind… “reap what you sow” 🙂 Such strength dear friend, love how a “new legacy” is “shaped” ABSOLUTELY!!! 🙂 ~April

  8. terri says:

    “Your repetitive cries laminate my champion’s certificate. I will make a copy for you.”

    …omfg. Exactly what I feel after my divorce – but lack the creativity to bring it to life such as you have.

    LOVE this.
    ;)t

  9. dani says:

    “I give you credit for the game you played, but I hope you know I won.”

    Wonderful attitude. Wonderful writing.

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  11. Every word seeps raw emotion. A beautiful tragedy. Well done my friend!!!

  12. gospelwriter says:

    Your opening words got me – and on and on… you could be writing about me. I have tried writing it myself, but, I like your words and phrasing infinitely better. Thanks! 🙂

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